Total emptiness, no reference points, utter unbalance and phobia with vague outlines.
These were the first words that came to my mind after finishing this project.
Project is just a generalizing word without special meaning content. 14 works… (I don’t take into account Pangolin ‘cause it was made on the wave of the time before) 14 works… For me they are like 14 planes of my soul, my thoughts, my experience, my contact with the set of attributes surrounding me.
In the course of time one thought crystallized and took a clear shape in my mind. It is that what was done now is a mirror of what was done two years ago. Then all was destroyed. Of course, now shapes are different. But the matter is the same.
All that is basically significant for me splashed out in paper. What is interesting: I didn’t hesitate at all over a choice what to do. All was going on in a natural way and in a right order. On the whole any of the works gave any trouble in the making. It’s notable that twice - when I was trying to make a fictitious figure that I imagined on purpose - I met with failure. And two works went to the dustbin without seeing the light. But there was no regret about it. There was only understanding of the fact that I turned wrong at some point. And very quickly all was falling into place.
I won’t describe the sense of every work. It will make me too vulnerable. Those who need it will be able to read it themselves.
And the last thing. When I was working I was persecuted by the thought that after expressing this whole gamut of emotions in a laconic shape, the silence will come. I finished and realized that it didn’t. Total emptiness, no reference points, utter unbalance and phobia with vague outlines…
P.S. One statement that I read in an article on the subject of folding get stuck in my mind: “Many origami designers sooner or later face with a question “So, what to fold?” Probably what I am doing is not origami for some people. But if an idea of a foolishness with silly eyes arrives to you, forget about paper. All that is forced is heartless, and what is heartless…